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radical thinking lolz

its been a while when my feelings and my brain level has stuck to being in a state of decomposition(intially i intended to say rottan but you i am differnt hihhhii) i wanted to wite this one blog on a very serious note but like i mentioned my fellings and my brains in suc a state that i cant really tell what i am feeling anymore
i am on a verge of being operated again and i am shitt scared, last time surprizing i wasnt but the fact i can feel everything during thoses agonising 2 hrs while my body is being merciless cut and my blood is literally gushing out .....i am really scared
my superman (for the tuned out folks my superman is my 1st hero my 1st angel my big bro)will be by my side but he cant exchange my pain he can joke around treat me like a princess will kiss me , pamper me silly all tis will make me forget momentarily but i know how bad the pain is
there are a hell lot of other things on my already confused mind but for now adios
i wish a safe operation for myself n hopefully i dont cry this time on the operation table

this year 2 of my close chums got hitched and by the end of this year n early next 3 more r tying the knot i get all perky when i m not a mere spectator in weddings i love to do work .......... surprized....... yeah i enjoy being of help but not helping myself weird i know .. m exactly that
but yeah that kicked some serious thinking bug in my head i mean seeing others get married a few of my frns have started cribbing when will i get hitched , but really getting married n me ......... its still a major question when ever we attend any function or get together s all my family members start gin unwanted suggestions of guys who r suitable for me i feel like running away from there

m still a solid year n 2 mths away fm being 25 yet people are like kab karegi shaadi jaise lyf mein aur kuch bakki hi nahi hai. iwont lie but at times the lonelyness buggs me getting into a empty bed sucks ,if only i could get a big teddy whos warm n cosy my problem solved hummmmm

but really why do people get married when the divorce rates are so high plus now the buget says legal counsel expenditure is going to raise toh kyun karna bhai
i dont know whether my opinion on marriage will change or not but maybe it can be influenced but not so soon least lolzzz
there are many roads i wanna go
theres are many things i wanna see
there too many things that fill my senses
too many miles to go b4 i die

and then it rained

i sat on the pillion, the road was covered with dust the air simply unbreathable i had kept my head on dadu's back and then it rained i tried stretching my arms but he yelled at me i promptly put em on this shoulders as he navigated in traffic i couldn't control my glee he chanced on my refection in his rear mirror and shook his head and smiled at me
its been a week since rains started and i didn't get a single drop on me i promised myself ill get soaked when m with someone but this time i couldn't escape it n m glad for it
the road cleared and i got my chance to spread my wings i was one with the world that i loved and created for myself i was in it happy soaked............
for me this is a moment of happiness when i can differentiate my feelings i cry even when m happy and the rains wash then off i smile in my sadness and the water mask's the sadness ,they give me so much without asking for anything in return.

JuSt ReAd OuT: Once upon a time in infosys, A TRUE STORY

JuSt ReAd OuT: Once upon a time in infosys, A TRUE STORY

of water plain simple water

seasons like summer and winter leave me with a great urge to sit back home kick the TV and eat Maggi though this i rarely do now (Maggi is the easiest meal, my frn calls the Maggi prepared by me soup Maggi cos i put a lot veggies n water) but rains being an exception i roam aimlessly without the need of any company without umbrellas without looking at anyone without thinking just looking at the trees listing to the birds ,the water dropping from the sky the gloomy sky i even stand in my balcony and get wet in the rains, yes the concept of balcony still exists in overcrowded mumbai cos my building is as old as i am dad and uncle build it when i was born, cool rgt!!

rains drive me on an high which i can guarantee even smoking pot wont get me there its a beautiful feeling something like love

well being in mumbai u get to feel a lot of things even literally i say(in overcrowded trains if u getting what i m saying ;)) the hugh traffic, the lines of people u see at 9 am and at 8 pm rushing towards the first opening the see like ants, the buildings so close to each other that u can see what the lady is singing in her shower, the corruption of the babus in the public and private sector, hugh no of aspiring singers, actors, musicians, beauty queens, cricketers etc...

in all this mind numbing activity and people rains makes me happy makes me love everyone cry with joy, put a smile even with broken heart

but this time around i didnt have that much joy for it did't rain at all

love etc

may be m obsessed but even with 10 posts about it m clueless hehe may be i know n m running away maybe i am an egoist but m an human wit all my faults an imperfections i have love all around me yet i am still searching i have lost may things in the past few months my data cable, my chapples, the one guy that i ever love, my self respect.......
but i am a determined soul i will get back everything except one cos i am tired running for it n m losing my precious sleep time energy and life behind it
life it short and i will live every moment as if it was my last one and continue loving without expecting,
i dont care wht you say i am in love wit u u try to pull me away but u dont knw the truth u cut me up n i keep bleeding keep bleeding in love