of water plain simple water

seasons like summer and winter leave me with a great urge to sit back home kick the TV and eat Maggi though this i rarely do now (Maggi is the easiest meal, my frn calls the Maggi prepared by me soup Maggi cos i put a lot veggies n water) but rains being an exception i roam aimlessly without the need of any company without umbrellas without looking at anyone without thinking just looking at the trees listing to the birds ,the water dropping from the sky the gloomy sky i even stand in my balcony and get wet in the rains, yes the concept of balcony still exists in overcrowded mumbai cos my building is as old as i am dad and uncle build it when i was born, cool rgt!!

rains drive me on an high which i can guarantee even smoking pot wont get me there its a beautiful feeling something like love

well being in mumbai u get to feel a lot of things even literally i say(in overcrowded trains if u getting what i m saying ;)) the hugh traffic, the lines of people u see at 9 am and at 8 pm rushing towards the first opening the see like ants, the buildings so close to each other that u can see what the lady is singing in her shower, the corruption of the babus in the public and private sector, hugh no of aspiring singers, actors, musicians, beauty queens, cricketers etc...

in all this mind numbing activity and people rains makes me happy makes me love everyone cry with joy, put a smile even with broken heart

but this time around i didnt have that much joy for it did't rain at all

love etc

may be m obsessed but even with 10 posts about it m clueless hehe may be i know n m running away maybe i am an egoist but m an human wit all my faults an imperfections i have love all around me yet i am still searching i have lost may things in the past few months my data cable, my chapples, the one guy that i ever love, my self respect.......
but i am a determined soul i will get back everything except one cos i am tired running for it n m losing my precious sleep time energy and life behind it
life it short and i will live every moment as if it was my last one and continue loving without expecting,
i dont care wht you say i am in love wit u u try to pull me away but u dont knw the truth u cut me up n i keep bleeding keep bleeding in love

kkkkkkkk

Its mandatory to look good to look desirable gone are the days when a persons heart was a thing of importance now size zero is the in thing all thanks to the pretty tempting kareena kapoor I don’t have anything against her but the question here is does she have anything against the 40 % and increasing population of not fat but slightly plump people
I just wish I could stuff her honestly its not hatred I love her attitude. after all she was trying to shake off her kilos to look desirable and look what’s she’s got a 40 plus boy friend 2 ready made kids what else could one girl ask for more (heheheh) but damn her I forgot about the fact that his a navab got the truck loads of money that could buy her diamonds that could make her forget about his sagging glory

leading a shit called life

its absurd having lead this life for 2o odd years m still clueless i always thought that my life is set i have the reins i can make it fantastic but its useless even to think bout it
everytime i sense a a clearing i sense of achivement thatll satiate my hunger for having the best "perfection" the illusion breaks m in A FIX
in such a crossroads thta i dont know where i am headed everytime i find someone who would anchor me to d ground my belifs rudly upruted maybe i am not to play this game may be iam gr8 the way i am without anyones support

my wrost fears

I Can Feel YouYou are so far away,but I can still feel you.The essence of your beingis in everything I say and do.The nearness of your spirittakes my breath away.I feel you in every beat of my heartas I go throughout my day.When I close my eyes,I get such feelings of bliss.I can see your gentle faceand feel the fire in your caress.You tiptoe across my mindin the gentlest ways.You’re in the softness of a roseand the warm wind on my face.You’re the sunbeams from heavenshining brightly in my soul.A sweetness of serenitythat fills my heart with gold.You’re always inside my mind,even though we are far apart.I can feel you with me alwaystugging gently at my heart.There is the sweetest devotion,I know you love me too.We’ll be together in spiritand I’ll be forever loving you.

A hurricane destructs the sanctity of wlc(my college)

Barely after we have been subjected to sheer mental torture called prof. mg we were subjected to another destruction mechanism called Mr. K
In a hugh fight with the slumber slowly taking me in it cozy arms I finally managed to master the ancient art of students passed on by generations,-to keep my eyes open and still sleep , nod at right time to portray as if I am attending and in between ask some duh kinda question which keeps the Mr. k happy and me in his goods bookz .(last line in Mr. k’s own language)
Dictionary of Mr. Kashyap
Talent- telents Job specialization – job specs Manpower specialization- mens specs
he sex(sets) up the machines
woooooooo we have a hell of time learning a new launguage called english froms k's perspective

Breaking the bubble

Lust, feelings, attraction, jealously, intimacy, sex, everything brewed together in right quantity gives us the right potent called love.
For me it was a textual thing I had boys (for they were not men yet) professed to me about their undying devotion ...alas their love for me. Merely one week after their pure confessions they were doing the same to someone else, this is how we are, alone always in search of something called love.
But my fairly tale did come true for he was also just a boy but he was capable of making me feel like a women I always wanted to feel like his eyes said it all I was completely besotted mesmerized (finding more adjectives to describe the beauty of that feeling but penning it down is taking away its sheer magic)every minute I spent with him was eternity every time I lay on his firm chest gave me a feeling of having it all it made me feel complete I knew he loves me yet hearing those magical words made me blush like a school girl hearing it for the firs time in her life
He was with me in body in soul yet I found something in his eyes I couldn’t put a finger on somewhere deep down I knew this is not forever but in those moments of togetherness I loved him I loved him like no one else I knew he would go sway but I didn’t care I wasn’t living for the past nor for the future it was those moments that made me happy complete blissful.
Unlike in those children books the princess always gets her prince charming mine walked out of it but I still believe earnestly I will have my happily ever after cos I still believe in love.
And for you I loved you wit all my heart and I will always love you I know for those moments you spent with me you love me too ull always be mince in my heart i love still too much.

at the loss of words

for all of my lifeall i carved for is respect
the methods of gettinmg it may be a tini tiny wrong ,for cos the use of them all i got was tag of snob, arrogance which to say honestly i underplayed
if the world was to ACTUALLY witness the wrath of my attitude ,lets say things would be little different round
but in all i am genuinely missunderstood
i yapp a lot even wit the amout of friends i have , a confession today cahnged me rather it numbed me
a confession when i least expected made me very vulnerable someone said to me he respected me for who i am, everthing cesed to exist for momentarily i was happy i was for the first time in my life"AT LOSS OF WORDS"

bAC To life

took off from my life routine went to goa n m completely rejuvinated and fresh m not a escapist but i did deserve a break i had my hands so full

genral tendency people will go to goa only for masty but i went for a different MISSION my family dragged me to all the possible temples in goa IMAGINE!!!!!my trip began wit uteer disgust for my parents incapability to asses which place we r in n how to behave (least wht i thought)

cos the goa i visited with friends was so differnt calangute n baga beaches semi nude firangs thronging the beaches flee markets n cheap alcohol n me in shorts was my ideal goa trip

but a day into temples n shrines visit made me discover my spiritual self (doesnt mean that ull end up finding me in temples at dayends ) i visited a monastry of our cast where young kids come n stay of our caste n become monks (monks- like priest who renounce all the wordly pleasures n oath to stay alone n work for better good) well enjoyed thorouly the whole week

in a way i relished the sites of all the temples we went too(thanks baba, excellent trip) i felt like a child again no responsibilties no lectures no nagging no friends to call bac only my family 3 out of 4 people m crazy about ;)

lovely views great company compensates for bad food

goa may be a paradise for fishetarians but not for vegies like me (complete nightmare)

now m bac to mumbai the hordes of people dirt dust trAins n traffic and biharis

lectures started n the shocker of all manav gokhle taking lecture god can he go on on on........

thank u

i m going to be an aunt in august
m estatic
i cant describe how much happy i am my place in family is going to be changed i m supposed to be more mature n grow up now ....................................nah
m gonna spoil d new kid gavankar make it partner in my crimes n mak my bhai n bhabhi cry after all i m their ist kid (heheheh )
but i love them
rabb rakkha

searcn continues ......may be till eternity

from d ever perky land of munchkins and bacchus--wit love

i m in d times of life when i raise above d normal human
i can feel extreme emotions at the same time
feeling of love and hate rather anger anxity tension as well as happiness love fun at the exact same time
this phase of my life i call exam period
its the most nervewreking time of any students career cos during this time only one thing ecos in ur thoughts "papa kehte hai bata naam karega"
(amir khan sucks y he had to be my fathers fav n y did he star in this song this song should be offically banned this raises the expectation in parents mind that kids are supposed to actually do something furitfull in life other than mess round)

the happiness part come cos i am d mean median mode of d house at that time d central tendency evry1 is always attentive giveing me more than i want its as if i am mohammad ali preparing for a gr8 boxing round
though in my heart ill love to punch d inventor or people who came up wit d studies or rather exams
wht did i ever do to them
as of now i m thinking of getting bac to my studies hopping that i dont get d dreaded f in answer sheets
adios

dare to belong

waiting for my angel to gime some strength

i m feeling numb all of sudden i jus cant handel these emotions
when someone hurts you that much u cant even cry cos all that hurt kills a part of u

to think all d forevers said n done cease to exits
ur mine n i m all urs was it all fake

i want to belive and m getting there too but times i want to think whts was so wrong that i was hurt so bad
i was left all alone
someone whom you never expected gives you a shoulder gives you his shirt to use as a tissue towel not caring whter u r actully using it for ur sobs or for d dirt in ur nasal cavity

someone whos lost wht he had but he can manage to love again
trust is always an issue
but then if u dont take a change u might neva know if it was worth

its actually funny the way a guy says things, they actually think that its beyong a girls grasp to understand wht their actual hidden intesion's r
do they think its that difficult to read their minds !!!!
evn when i know all this i make d same mistak over n over agin thinking this time itll be difffernt

4M MY HEART

Always forgive your enemies, but never forget their names

You and Me
I’ll do what i do
You’ll go back to being you
and will both forget
this phase were going through
i’ll forget ur laugh
and u’ll forget my smile
and we’ll both forget
the times we spent worth while
u’ll forget the memories
i’ll forget ur name
and well both forget
the unbearable pain
i see u with her
u see him with me
we’ve forgotten each other
ur just another face i see.

jus a though

hav been thinking for a whole of my life

its all in the head but why is it so difficult ot blurt it out in open

people say they love you but they actually dont isnt it obvious this world runs on wants and needs

i dont know rather dont intend to know what the future stores for me

at this moment its jus taking living each day each min as it come

so wht u waiting for bring it on